August 19, 2012

Back to School and I'm... Scared!?!



Summer is almost over and my children will be back to school.  I am excited for them, and they are excited also, but I am full of fear for myself.

I have been a stay at home mom for the past six years, I consider it my first full time job.  And for the first time in six years my house will be empty of children three half days of the week.  I am so sad and excited all at the same time.  Happy to know there is an opportunity to get back some of myself, but scared that I won't have a clue what to do.  Technically I will be building my health coaching practice, and this will be time to devote to that, but what a scary thought.  What a big change, I cannot wrap my brain around how big and how small all this is all at the same time.  I have high expectations for the small amount of time every week.  I have huge plans for these nine hours.  And I shouldn't because I am going to psyche myself out and possibly throughly disappoint  myself that I can't get everything done that I have planned.  Nerves eat me that I won't be able to get my practice to a point that it feels real and worthy of my precious time.   My precious nine hours, time just for me to spend however I want... No, nine hours I am spending hard earned money on, so that I can get this practice up and running.

So in two weeks I will put my game face on, and as I drop my kids off to school, I will be on my way to work.  I see this as a time to really watch myself, to take care of myself and make sure I am healthy and things are in order.

When we all start something new, are under stress, or struggling with a decision, it is important to listen to yourself.  You know you best!  Take lots of quite time to reflect and listen to your inner guide.  Take good care of yourself so that you can be your best helper.  Feed yourself good healthy food, relax, exercise, talk to friends and loved ones, have fun time and get good sleep.   When you can clean the window to your heart and sweep the path to your own mind it makes listening, feeling, and thinking much easier and much more clear.

I never said all this is easy.  I struggle sometimes to do it everyday, but the key is at least I think about it everyday and put at least one item for myself on the "to-list."   It may only be to eat a healthy breakfast, but I did it for me and that makes ME feel good.  So schedule one thing everyday for you and make YOU feel good.

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